November 2014

Recently I realized something very important. It's not freedom that people are aiming for. It's independence. It gives you a sense of accomplishment and pride. That is probably why they say that rich people are self-absorbed. Well, they made it- they got what they were going for and it's really not all that surprising (or shouldn't be) that they are like themselves right now. I do kinda get their attitude looking at it like that. Kinda though.
Anyways, nothing is as easy as it seems. But enough with the generalizations and lets get on with the more specific stuff. People always ask me why I like baking so much when most times I don't even eat the things I created. Well it's quite simple actually. Having all these ingredients in front of you and being able to mix them up into something that brings people pleasure and makes them happy...it's a satisfying feeling. Knowing that every single smile was brought on by your decisions to tweak the recipe in a specific way. Or create a new one. Or follow an old one. It doesn't really matter. 
And don't let this fool you. It's not just a selfless act to make people happy. It's actually a lot more complicated than that. It's the same feeling a painter gets when his new project is finished. Or an author when his book is being published. It's not just the acknowledgement of others. It's also the self-praise and the recognition that you did this and people appreciate it and enjoy it. You had all the control and you created something that came from your creativity, steady hand and patience (and mixer, oven and wallet...that's besides the point though). It's about an idea that turned out to be just as great once executed as it was in your head.
Any artist can tell you the feeling you get once you've finished a project. And even though baking and cooking should technically be reserved for women who have no bigger and more important dreams and aspirations, I am here to tell you that it is actually one of the things that makes me the happiest. It's a lot cheaper than therapy, but achieves more or less the same results. I've messed up a NUMEROUS amount of recipes, but now and then I will get it all right. I will have the results in from of me and the bonus- the satisfaction I get from seeing other people enjoying what I made. That sounded a bit pervy...

People are very different. Our past experiences, our culture, our upbringing, our language and many more things that we don’t even consider define us all. But the things that put us all in the same pile are even less noticeable. One of them is heartbreak. It’s something that most of us have experienced and it has shaped us into the individuals that we are today. It has molded our past and present relationships with friends, family and partners and turned them into a reflection of our inner flora and fauna.Once you’re heart has been shattered one time by a person who you trusted, it is important to find someone to put it back together. Some of us are lucky enough to find that someone, but others aren’t. And they are blamed for it. We judge them for their actions and the way they treat others, but it’s not always their fault. They don’t trust and doubt everyone and everything. I’m not trying to make excuses for them. I’m not saying they are not wrong. I am not saying that them breaking someone else will ever make up for their own hurt. But it’s the cycle of life. It’s the things they never tell anyone that have made them into the individuals that they are today.We all seek appreciation and love in one way or another. We are all looking for something to make us worthy of what we want. Otherwise we might just end up losing it. People might see though our masks and realize that we aren’t as good as we want to seem we are. We aren’t all that people expect us to be. Maybe inside we’re just lost. Lost in our thoughts, our problems and dilemmas. And no one ever find out unless they really care. Unless they dig deeper, because they want to know the real person beneath the socially acceptable mask.


On my reading list right now:

  • Jane Austen- Pride and Prejudice
  • Lena Dunham- Not that kind of girl
  • Sophie Kinsella- Shopaholic to the stars

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